I took a half day off from work today, but it wasn’t because I was ill or I had some appointment. It was because I felt like I needed to just leave work. I felt so desensitized from work. If I had to describe myself, I felt like a dead man walking. My body had function, but it felt numb.
I wanted to do something that would make me feel better. This is the first time I’ve ever taken PTO on a weekday because I wanted to. I came back home thinking about all the things I wanted to get done – journaling, cleaning up the house, working on this blog, working out; all I did was crash and sleep the whole afternoon. Not gonna lie – when I woke up, I felt like shit.
I listened to this Jay Shetty video a while back when I was really going through hell at work as a test engineer. It talks about the irony of how we live, especially in regards to our jobs. It pretty much describes how I feel and really how I think a lot of my co workers feel. Here’s a quote that he mentions in the video:
“We sacrifice our health in order to make wealth, then we sacrifice our wealth in order to get back our health.”
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I’d thought I’d share this experience because if you’re in a similar work situation, you’re not alone.
